#DoThingsThatMakeYouHappy This past few days it hit me and I truly felt down, emotional and over whelmed with what the Podiatrist had said. It really crushed my spirit, and I felt grief over the prospect of them wanting me to wear orthotic shoes.

Sounds ridiculous I know, but after more than a decade of missing sandals, flip flops and heels, the thought of losing my trainers pushed me over the edge. For as a chronic pain sufferer you grieve over a lot of things, things you used to do, friends you had, careers, dreams, activities, fashion, health, mental health etc… Wearing braces and gloves on my hands is a bad enough outward reminder that I’m broken, disabled.

I had a good cry, I let it all out, and I have picked myself up again. I can’t change anything for now, all I can do is knuckle down and do the exercises given. (Side Note – How are you meant to exercise like they want you too, when it swells up so much and hurts so bad?)

I felt it was important to let you know it’s not always rainbows and sunshine. Some days are a struggle to stay positive.

We had booked a concert with #SteelPulse on Saturday, music is good for the soul. Some reggae roots to cheer us up and give us something to look forward too .

So sunshine and Apreol drinks, time to put things behind me, I can’t change them, all I can do is my best. I’ve booked myself in for steroid injections in the thumbs, as I may as well get 8 to 12 weeks of pain relief if I can. Would make summer and camping etc easier.

Headed to a pub for some food and brewdog IPA. Happy days.

Enjoy the sunny weather, as we in UK know it won’t last long! Concert was amazing, we ended up getting home near 1am!! What a way to cheer us up. So many good people we met, and the atmosphere was excellent all night. Would definitely go to their concert again.