Well today’s the day for the Hand Surgeon, and I’m determined to get onto the surgery wait list, as I’ve been kicking myself ever since April for not doing it then! I was being a scaredy cat. But no more, I’m going in more confident and determined.

Omg I’ve been super suffering from the excessive sweating and hot flushes as well. I know it’s the steroid as it had disappeared after my last steroid injections for a few months. Sleep isn’t easy when you feel like lava one second like an iceberg the next!

After the worst night yet from sweating then freezing, I’m up doing yoga then getting ready to go.

I see a Hand Fellow instead of the Surgeon I saw in April, who I’m told is off to London to work. Damn it.

However Mr B has spoken to all the other hand specialists at the hospital and it looks like a Fusion is the only viable surgery. So we run through the procedure, aftercare, what can go wrong and all that lovely stuff. We opt for the left hand first as the steroid injection is so difficult to get in, in that hand. I had to sign consent forms and fill out pre op forms, but as it’s looking likely over 3 mths wait, the rest of pre op will be done nearer the time.

Super nervous that I’m now a floating patient so I have no idea who will be performing the surgery. This gives me massive anxiety. I felt more confident and comfortable when I knew them. But I trust the hospital and it’s badly needed.