Today it’s ROH day, the Hospital appointment and results from the CT Scan I had last month. I’m going to hear the consultants opinion on it, and hear what they have to say, and maybe treatment going forward.

I’ve had a lot of soul searching and grieving of a life I fear I may never achieve, has been present most of this year, with no idea on how to move forward into a comfortable and fulfilling future. I’m so over the pain.

While insoles help a bit, they aren’t tackling my lower back pain, and knee issues. Which I fear in turn will become much bigger health problems further down the line. The physio is hard but being done, and well as consistent yoga and walking when I can. I’m not lacking in a desire to help myself in conservative measures. However, it’s heartbreaking when it’s not actually helping with matters and all you see is a lifetime of walking sticks and pain.

I hope the custom orthotics inside the shoes are better. But it’s not a perfect solution as I will be bound to what I can wear with them. But maybe they will be better than these hard sole genetic ones, tried the flexible ones and that was marginally better.

Well not sure it went how I wanted too. Measurements from CT Scan show its 6mm difference and the long leg is actually shorter inside. It’s definitely be pelvic obliquity and maybe a curve of the spine going on. Recommended to hold off insoles to see if another year or so it finally evens itself out, and becomes more manageable. Or wear them and accept it’s like that forever. Did say I could go and see a Leg Deformity Specialist but that’s at Queen Elizabeth hospital, referral can take a year, see what they recommend and possibly see a spine clinic through them. So that’s the route I’m taking at the moment. So referral is put in and in the meantime lots of physio barefoot and walking around house etc with no insoles, and use them for longer days out perhaps. Progress I guess, but disheartening it is needed.